What I Learned Today

Nothing like going to church to make you realize stuff about yourself, and it's usually not something feel-good! The passage today, Proverbs 3:5-6, talks about trust. It says "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways aknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight". A lot of things about this simple passage cause me to pause. The word "trust" meand to have a bold confidence in someone else, and the word "lean" means to place your weight onto something else. It's the bold confidence that gets me. I try to trust God, but my fear gets in the way almost every time. It's like I feel like I need to hold onto some aspects of my life because I don't fully believe and trust that God is going to accomplish what He promised in my life. How sad!Intellectually I know that my fears and hesitations are irrational, but I have such a hard time balancing out what I know to be true, and what I feel to be true.

The pastor tonight said that to trust the Lord means that we should have the bold confidence to surrender control of every decision, every hardship, and every moment to God. What an intense thought! This is something I want to strive to do everyday, to bodly trust God no matter what the circumstances!

New Year, New Start

Well, it is almost 2010, wow, 2009 went by so fast! I have accomplished so much this year that I never thought I would be able to. My faith in God has propelled me through some tough times, and it is only by His grace that I am where I am right now! I plan on spending 2010 not vowing lose weight, or diet, or whatever, but to focus more on God, my relationship with Him, and let that lead me to my heart's desires. I plan on running the New York 13.1, a half marathon, in April with Team World Vision. Sponsoring a young boy from Malawi through world vision, I will be running and gaining sponsors with him as my driving force! I hope to accomplish a lot this year, more than I can hope to dream for, and some that I already am dreaming for. This will be the place for me to share my struggles and my journey through 2010 with a new outlook on life, and a new found desire for change! Toast to 2010!